HE vs. SHE (she post #1)
Yesterday was D-day, DENIAL NO MORE.
I got weighed and measured after a 6 month “vacation”. The numbers told me what I already knew, that I had gained all the weight back! Full disclosure, I took the boot camp back in June of 2010 and loved the results so much I signed up for another 6 weeks which got me to my wedding weight. The blissful event took place on 10/1/10. I started celebrating that day and never looked back. So, here I am starting over and feeling defeated, but optimistic.
I got up this morning, looking forward to getting into the early morning routine I remembered so well. I drove to the studio and asked myself, “how I got here? How is it that I’m starting over, again!” The mind is an amazing thing. It tells me that the jeans I’m wearing aren’t tight because I ate too much, they’re tight because I put them in the dryer. It tells me that working out today won’t effect tomorrow, or the next day or the next so why bother. It tells me that I don’t have the willpower or the strength to do it, when I know I do. I did. So, what changed? For me, it’s not having a goal. So, I created a goal. The most immediate, is to beat Justin with the highest percentage of weight and inches lost. Yes, I know, it’s childish but I want to win. I want to win because I hope it will get me to my next goal which is to stop looking at weight and fitness as a goal and look at it as my life. I need to stop taking “vacations” and incorporate good eating habits and exercise into my crazy schedule EVERY day. I won’t always have the luxury of having a goal, so I need to make good choices at every turn.
So, here it is. Day 1 and I’m feeling great! We finished 8 rounds of HIIT (high intensity interval training) for which I have a love hate relationship but I know they work, which makes me lucky. I know what’s at the end of the yellow brick road, I just have to stay on it!