The Shed

Yesterday was D-day, DENIAL NO MORE.

I got weighed and measured after a  6 month “vacation”.  The numbers told me what I already knew, that I had gained all the weight back!  Full disclosure, I took the boot camp back in June of 2010 and loved the results so much I signed up for another 6 weeks which got me to my wedding weight.  The blissful event took place on 10/1/10.  I started celebrating that day and never looked back.  So, here I am starting over and feeling defeated, but optimistic.

I got up this morning, looking forward to getting into the early morning routine I remembered so well.  I drove to the studio and asked myself, “how I got here?  How is it that I’m starting over, again!”  The mind is an amazing thing.  It tells me that the jeans I’m wearing aren’t tight because I ate too much, they’re tight because I put them in the dryer.  It tells me that working out today won’t effect tomorrow, or the next day or the next so why bother.  It tells me that I don’t have the willpower or the strength to do it, when I know I do.  I did.  So, what changed?  For me, it’s not having a goal.  So, I created a goal.  The most immediate, is to beat Justin with the highest percentage of weight and inches lost.  Yes, I know, it’s childish but I want to win.  I want to win because I hope it will get me to my next goal which is to stop looking at weight and fitness as a goal and look at it as my life.  I need to stop taking “vacations” and incorporate good eating habits and exercise into my crazy schedule  EVERY day.  I won’t always have the luxury of having a goal, so  I need to make good choices at every turn.

So, here it is.  Day 1 and I’m feeling great!  We finished 8 rounds of HIIT (high intensity interval training) for which I have a love hate relationship but I know they work, which makes me lucky.  I know what’s at the end of the yellow brick road, I just have to stay on it!